My life.

My phone's been broken since December 25, 2008. I am using my brother's phone. I basically stole his phone from him. Some people don't even know that I use my brother's phone, and keep contacting me on the other number. I can't even text that freely anymore. I miss texting freely. I hate my brother's phone! It's so big and ugly. I liked my chocolate even though it broke very easily. It was perfect for me.

I am currently waiting on my friend to send me his share of the APUSH vocab. I hate how we have an APUSH test tomorrow. Merely because I have a bad feeling about the test.

Alas, this week will just be a horrible week. Tomorrow, I have to take the APUSH multiple-choice test, and I'll also be getting back my calculus ch. 7/8 score. I am so deathly scared.. AH, I despise tests! They completely determine your grade in the class.. And on Tuesday, I have a chapter 10 calculus test! and a Chinese test! I thought Chinese 1 would be easy (everyone said that any foreign language's first level class would be easy), but really. It isn't. Unless you're a Chinese person, I don't think you can succeed this class without devoting most of your time to this class or.. cheating. It's not that I cheat; I just use notecards that we aren't suppose to use during tests. It helps me get at least a C. Sometimes, when I'm lucky, other pro-Chinese speakers help me with the test, too. That helps me to get at least a B. Hopefully, on Tuesday, I will have those pro-Chinese people help me.. See, everyone talks about how Korean is a horrible class and whatnot, but honestly, try being in Chinese, kids. You will miss Korean! I can totally endure Korean-- not Chinese, though. WAY too difficult for me.

Let's see. On Wednesday, my Beloved paper is due. Yay.. I love gathering quotes and weaving them into the essay and trying to make what I'm trying to say flow. No, just kidding. I really dislike writing essays. It stresses me out like no other. Okay, and on Thursday, yet another English writing piece is due: the quarterly Writer's Workshop piece. I guess it's easier to write since it's a creative writing essay, but still! I would like to make Mrs. Sprague laugh, or cry, or whatever, at my essay because of its wonderfulness. Sigh. Also on Thursday, our Chinese legend book is due! and we have to present the book to the class! Too bad my group members and I do not even know how to write/say anything in Chinese! and too bad we haven't even started even though we had a whole month+ to work on it! We are all .. failures. Thank God Spencer's awesome drawing skills and Vincent's and my fabulous coloring skills will wow Mrs. Chuang, though. Hopefully..

Friday, I have to have finished reading Helie Lee's Still Life With Rice by 2nd period because we're having a timed essay on our outside reading books. Yay. I love timed writing. Seriously, this week is full of English stuff; what a frantic week. I haven't even read that much of the 2nd half of Still Life With Rice! I am so busy this week.

And ALSO on Friday, Jaime and I will be managing the ASB booth at Spring Fling. It's a bit nervewrecking because Michelle and Christina both will not be here. I'm afraid something might go wrong? I think I'm still secretly scared of Ms. Yoo; I don't want to disappoint! Siggggh. We'll see how that goes. If it goes well, it'll be a great end to a horrible/stressful week and a wonderful start to Spring Break.

Can you even believe Spring Break is already here!? Wow. Time to start cracking on making ASB campaign posters & studying for the AP tests.

I love life.

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OMG.. PHYSICS test on Friday. aosdigfaoiaghtattaqwtoa358ut'; my LIFE.

2nd post.

I really wanted to keep my blog "blog-like." No surveys, no rants, no informal writing. But currently, I'm getting prepared to stay up until maybe 2? 3? o'clock so that I can finish most of my APUSH outlines and vocab. So sadly enough, I'm going to waste ten~fifteen minutes to fill out a survey. I love how I have so much willpower. THANKS, KIM.

Ten Things About Me Right Now
1. I've become too dependent on caffeine. I must stop.
2. Ian G. told me yesterday that you can't get "addicted" to coffee, that it's all in your head, that you can only become dependent, but not addicted. I thought that was interesting.
3. I am wearing pink fuzzy socks at the moment. My mom absolutely hates it when I don't wear socks in the house because my feet get cold easily.
4. I need to learn how to manage my time. Don't we all?
5. My favorite breakfast meal at the moment: peanut butter sandwich with banana slices in between.
6. The only makeup that I usually wear is mascara, but people don't even notice.. That irks me..
7. I'm so freaking scared for next Feb/Mar/Apr when college acceptance (and rejection) letters come out.
8. Can you believe I'm 16 years old already!? Time flies by so fast. Man.
9. I want to see snow right now.
10. I miss my grandparents.


Nine Things I Wish I Could Say To Nine Different People
1. You're intelligent, we get that. But honestly, do you have to rub it into people's faces when they don't understand something so you look at them with that one facial expression that reads, "Dude, are you fcking dumb"? I find you so unnecessary.
2. Although I know you're a really good person, sometimes when you're hyper/happy, you turn sort of mean, and I hate it when you become like that.
3. You're absolutely CRAZY and you're so weird! But I guess that's why I like you; yeah, yeah, you're unique. Thanks for being a good friend =)
4. Do you know how much you frustrate me? The things you say to others/do with others are so calm/shy-ish/NICE, but when you're with me, you're an evil person who keeps looking at me with that FACIAL expression, and I just want to slap your face and kick you. But I guess the kind of friendship we have is pretty legit (I hope you agree..) and that's why you think it's okay to show your true colors. But you neglect me too much and I hate you for that. Really.
5. You're not cute. Please get over yourself. When they go away to college next year, you'll be all alone. You will. Stop. Please stop.
6. I think you need to stop being so insecure and GO.FOR.IT. Please stop being such an awkward person and admit your feelings =) DO IT. You have no idea how much you're frustrating me and others by not admitting your feelings. But it only frustrates us because we want you to be happy. And we care about your life =)
7. WHAT HAPPENED? We were such good friends.. Now we never even see each other anymore. As much as I feel like I could care less, I care a lot! I want us to be friends until the end!
8. You're sometimes such an asshole, but I guess you're mostly a REALLY GOOD FRIEND. So I thank you.
9. I miss you so much!!!!!!! I hope your health improves drastically.. Whenever a random person talks about Korea, or whenever Korea pops up in my head, I just think about you and Grandma and my other grandma and then everybody else, and I just want to cry =( The main reason I want to go to Korea so badly is because of you.. I hope you guys all feel better. You've become so much more frail-looking, too.. =( I am going to attach a video of me playing a cool piano song to one of the e-mails one of these days and make you proud of me =) I love love love love love you and miss you.


Eight Ways To Win My Heart
1. Humor
2. Non-judgmental towards people
3. Sarcasm.. haha
4. Has at least one cute facial expression? Whether it's when the person's concentrating deeply, just smiling, laughing, or whatever, the person should look cute at least in one scenario
5. Someone genuine! Not fake, but kind and sincere.
6. Someone who'll LISTEN to me.
7. Don't frown so much. Don't look at me as if I'm crazy.. SMILE!
8. Don't be shallow


Seven Questions That Currently Cross My Mind
1. Am I even going to get accepted into any colleges T_T?
2. Will I get married!?
3. Who am i going to be friends with forever?
4. Will I fall asleep while doing my outlines tonight?
5. Do they wish I was there with them right now?
6. Is my leg going to fall asleep if I'm in this position for a while? (..yes)
7. How will my future turn out?


Six Things I Do Before I Go To Bed
1. Change into my pajamas
2. Take contacts out
3. Brush my teeth
4. Wash my face
5. Stretch
6. Finish homework haha


Five People Who Mean A Lot To Me
1. Mom
2. Dad
3. Brother
4. Relatives in Korea!! (how can I exclude them..)
5. Kim


Four Things I Am Wearing Right Now
1. Socks
2. Jeans
3. Shirt
4. Sweatshirt


Three Songs I Listen To A Lot, Lately
1. Don't Leave
2. What Shall I Do?
3. Kiss Me Thru The Phone


Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die.
1. Fall in love (omgaah so cheesy, but really. i want to)
2. Travel for a year


One Confession.
1. After one traumatic incident I experienced when I was six years old, I've been scared of dogs. Yes, even little ones. Well, fine. I'm only scared of the dogs that bark and jump all over me. I am FREAKING scared of those dogs. Which is why I am scared of Tori's dog..

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I think I talk too much. I feel like I don't know what to write in my blog because I already told a person about all I'm feeling/thinking about at the moment. Every day, some new thought pops up in my head and I just can't keep that thought to myself so I tell somebody. Whether it be somebody I talk to very often or somebody I feel that I can trust with my rather rash comments about someone annoying, I always tell a person what I'm feeling at the moment.

So honestly, what am I supposed to write in a journal entry?

I've attempted to write in journals. In 6th grade, I wrote in my lovely journal every day-- almost religiously, actually. I wrote about such nonsense stuff and when I come across it sometimes, I read over what I wrote back when I was ten/eleven, and I really laugh at loud because what I wrote is so ridiculous and embarrassing. Perhaps that's why I should write in a journal notebook: to preserve the past?

I consider myself a pack-rat; I don't like throwing away things just in case I might find it when I'm forty or fifty or sixty and remember where/when/how I got those things. I guess I like thinking about the past. I feel like everything's too precious to throw away. My mom always complains about this.. She wants me to clean up my room and throw away all useless "junk". Honestly, it is rather useless. But what if I do preserve it, put it into a "time capsule" kind of box, save that box until I'm all grown up, shove it into the attic, and come across it when I'm even older? Then I'll be looking at all of these old things and I'll just be reminiscing and thinking about how great my life was when I was 10, 12, 14, 16, etc.

Maybe I watch too many movies. I don't know. Okay, a decision's been made. I shall buy a journal. Now the question is-- from where?